i checked into the hotel and walked up to the window to see an old man convincing his wife to stand on the luggage cart while he pulled her across the patio. They were both laughing like kids at disneyland. joy has never been more contagious. :)
I know how to hold a grudge
I can send a bridge up in smoke
And I can’t count the people I’ve let down, the hearts I’ve broke
You ain’t gotta dig too deep
If you wanna find some dirt on me
I’m learning who you’ve been
Ain’t who you’ve got to be
It’s gonna be an uphill climb
Aww honey I won’t lie
I ain’t no angel
I still got a few more dances with the devil
I’m cleaning up my act little by little
I’m getting there
I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see
I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get
But I’m better than I used to be
I’ve pinned a lot of demons to the ground
I’ve got a few old habits left
But there’s still one or two I might need you to help me get
Standing in the rain so long has left me with a little rust
But put some faith in me
And someday you’ll see
There’s a diamond under all this dust
I ain’t no angel
I still got a few more dances with the devil
I’m cleaning up my act little by little
I’m getting there
I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see
I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get
But I’m better than I used to be
I ain’t no angel
I still got a few more dances with the devil
But I’m cleaning up my act little by little
I’m getting there
I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see
I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get
But I’m better than I used to be
Tim McGraw- Better Than I Used To Be <3 pretty much sums up my life
I’m so stressed out right now. First with school I have to complete work for a nine week by like next Wednesday. Then I hung out with this guy Tuesday and I had my ipod on my bed then after he left I haven’t been able to find it anywhere. I’ve looked every where I could think of. When I asked he told me nah nah i didn’t take it. I want to believe him but it’s not like I have this huge house or room where it could be anywhere. The past 2 days I’ve moved all my furniture, looked in bens, looked in my sheets, and every where else and nothing. I still haven’t told my mom. I just don’t want to make her mad or disappoint her. I just wish I could close my eyes and count to three and it will appear or if I could rewind back to Tuesday and no hung out with him. I’m trying so hard to bring my grades up but it’s hard when you pretty much teach yourself. I just want to make my mom proud of me. I want her to say “good job with school.” I don’t tell her much anymore because I don’t want to disappoint her. I’ll do anything to make her proud and not mess something up. It seems like I make a bad choice and don’t think it’s bad when I say yes but as soon as i do it I feel bad. Then it usually get worst then what it started out to be. I don’t want to be compared to my brother or sister. I just want her to be proud of me for being me. There’s so much I wish I could just sit with her and tell her about. But I don’t know how she will react to some of them. I wish we lived in a world where people weren’t so judgmental. It doesn’t make one superior then another because of their race, sex, or sexual preference. No one is perfect. We all will do something in our life that people aren’t going to like. Some people will make bad choices because they are pressured and others will make bad choices because they don’t care. I honestly can’t wait til summer so I won’t be so stressed out and can finally have fun. This school year has been nothing but a big mess. No telling what my life would be like if I didn’t hurt my ankle so bad. I would probably have better grades, have a higher gpa and hopefully would of been able to take college classes. I want to do my best in school so I can go further in life then the kids who don’t care about school. I want to make so many people happy and proud because I want to go far in life.
